Tuesday, March 18, 2014

35 hari berlalu...




genap 1 bulan, 6 hari
terasa lama masa berlalu,
rindu setiap hari semakin membuku..

selalu, tak pernah lebih dr 28 hari,
masih boleh lg mengawal diri,
masih gagah untuk menghitung hari,
tp kali ini,....

aduh..., saat itu seakan merangkak memutar waktu,
minit yg berlalu, begitu lama untuk berlalu,
kenapalah jauh beribu batu,
rasa begitu seksa untuk menunggu..

kadang-kadang, bila rindu sesak diingatan,
diri mula  amuk dirasuk setan,
segala yg negatif muncul sebagai siulan,
ah.., memang lemah kalao berjaohan,
diri tak selalu gagah untuk menepis segala kemungkinan..

risau, bimbang, takut, semua itu dtg menduga,
hati dan jiwa semakin resah bergelora,
kalao nk diikotkn kata,
mahu saja terbang ke sana..

nafsu, jiwa, sukar untuk dikawalnya,
selalu kuatkan hati, jangan diikutkan kemahuan meraka,
kerana kita punya akal yg bertakhta dikepala,
untuk menjadi petujuk membimbing iman di dada.

sujud, kembali beserah kepada Nya,
menangis esak, hanya mahu Dia
yg menyampaikn rindu pada teman yg jauh di sana,

beritahu dia, bahawa,
disini, rindu teman bergurau senda,
selalu dia saja jd mangsa buli,
kalao menyanyi, biarkn sumbang,
ttphanya nyanyian itu yg menghiburkan hati..

guraun di dalam kereta,
terkadang terngiang bila tak bersama,
tahu tak, senyuman awak plg mahal didunia?
owh....., tlglah tuhan bahagiakn dia disana.

pesanan terakhir sebelom langkah semakin jauh,
"jaga diri, jgn lupakan saya,
kerana pergi demi untuk nmembina sebuah keluarga bersama"...

tiap kali ungkapan itu dibaca,
menitik air mata,
saat mata mula berkaca,
hati tak henti berdoa, agar tuhan jagakn dia disana..

kalao boleh, mmg mahu tuhan bawa kita bersama,
berusaha sekuat daya untuk kebahagiaan kita,
tp, mungkin hikmah awk disana tuhan mahu jdkn kta lebih bersedia,
disana mula belajar pelbagai masakan utama,
disini berusaha melengkapkan diri praktikal selengkapnya..

tuhan..., hikmahmu nan tersembunyi tak mungkin kan ku tahu,
rezekimu yg luas akn ku berusaha mencarinya,
hidayahmu, yg penuh hikmat, akan cuba ku pelajari..

janji, ya, akn tetap menuggu setia,
kerana yakin ini untuk kebaikan bersama.
akur, pada setiap kejadian Dia,
kerana yakin rindu yg menggunung
cuma ujian kecil hikmah mungkin kita bakal bersama..


(tuhan tlg jagakn dia, untuk lebihan masa yg tak berapa lama,
genap 4 bulan, kita akan kembali berjumpa.... mmg dah tak sabar,rasanya!! )


(lanney 180414)
(for the one that i miss soo much..)
(take care there, turkmen!)









Sunday, March 16, 2014

muhasabah diri



byk yg telah dipelajari baru-baru ini. dikhianat, di caci, dibuang bagai tiada harge diri, dituduh macam maruah tu tak pernah penting lagi. menangis sampai bengkak mate, menjerit sekuatnya hanye untuk beritahu dunia ape yg terbuku dalam dada.

hukum alam itu sama semuanya. boleh menindas yg lemah, teros menghukum yg tidak berdaya dan tak pernah cuba untk berlaku adil terhadap semua. hukum. hukum. itu semua hukuman dunia

benar. benar itu semua lumrah dunia. bila manusia mempunyai hati yang berbeza. nampak rambut memang sama warna, tapi jiwa mereka tak mungkin serupa. ya, memang kita sudah berusaha. gigih. Sekuat mana, jangan pernah menjadi tanda tanya. kerana itu sahaja daya yg ada.

terkadang fizikal cube menjerit kuat, cuba lontarkan itu sahaja yg mampu dibuat. hati sudah menangis sendiri, sehinggan rasa sedih sudah sebati dalam diri. paksa, jangan pernah sesekali memaksa diri. kerana ia akan menimbulkan kehilangan sifat ikhlas dalam hati. Biarlah, sebolehnya ia dtg dgn sendiri.

kata orang, jangan mengeluh dgn takdir tuhan. kerana itulah sebaik rancangan. tetapi, terkadang, bila penindasan yg dilakukan sesama manusia, mmg boleh  menerbitkan permusuhan. Sifat amarah dtg tanpa diundang. Tetatpi, sebolehnya menjauhkn rasa kebencian.

renung. cuba untuk muhasabah diri. terkadang memang kita cepat mebuat keputusan sendiri. melatah dengan tindakan diri. tapi terkadang hanya Dia yang Maha mengerti.Dia yg MAha Mengetahui. Maha Melihat apa yg terjadi.

kuat. cube untuk gagahkan diri. walau, berusaha sehabis mati, tikar sejadah tetap menjadi bukti. Tangisan td. Luahan td. Hanya Dia yg menjadi saksi. Berceritalah, sepuasnya. Menangislah, smpai penuh lenjun air mata disejadah sana. Asl hati td jd tenang. Jiwa td semakin senang. Sakit td beransur hilang. Kerana dunia ini milikNya. Langit biru itu yg dijadikanNya. Dia yg Maha berkuasa, segala jawapan pasti ade disana. Kerana janji Nya, takkan disakiti hamba itu jika dye tak mampu menanggungnya. Janji Nya lg, setiap yg berlaku tersembunyi hikmah didalamnya.


Percayalah, kerana yg terbaik, hanya dtg dr Nya…



Lanney, 2014
(mctgrdb)






Tuesday, January 7, 2014

memorable journey of 2013 part 2 (cidb candidate..)..




































yeahhh.., perjalanan terakhir 2013 untk mencari sesuap nasi, mencari rezeki yg halal untk menyara diri. still remember me, tqah and mien went to cidb interview on september 2013. during dat moment masing2, xdpt kje lg.. act, ktrg x aspect pon dpt interview ni, coz lecturer yg hantar nme to cidb. so, when we suddenly received a call frm cidb, ktrg redah je. nothing to aspect. oh ya, still remember that was the first time ever, we'll see atiqah pakai high heels!! how hard she walked!! we laugh to her all day!! gigih sgt okeyh g interview pakai heels with handbag and all that. yasmin pon sme, siap bwk slipar sbb prepare lpas interview nk bkak heels. while for me, pakai kasot sarong n kemeja lme, n ready for intrview. cool giler kn?? as for me, during dat moment kecewa xdpt offer sunway. so mcm d mood is not there. but2xx, Alhamdulillah..., rezeki ktrg. we r all get into the cidb programme!!! thank you Allah..!! at first we a little bit doubt about this programme. coz its 1 year training programme to become project manager in the future.  1 year mens we can't get any job when we've signed the contract with them as we must compete the 1 year task without any problem.... fuhhh...., tough decision act.

and again alhamdulillah after signing the contract with cidb and teraju, i guess i felt no regret after all. coz my world change 180 degree!!! i love to being in this programme!!! the adventure through out 2 month of this programme is definitely like awesome to hell!!! its best giler!!! what word shud i use to describe the experience huh?? never expected its bring my big smile back!!!

starting, from our 1st step to seri pacific hotel to signed the contract. then we've been taught at pwtc for almost 2 weeks. learning about personality, basic of project management, and ccpm software.  fully support, everyday we eat the best food evah which is cook by the hotel. 3 times a day! can u believe how good the taste of hotel food are???!! its like delicious much to make urself gaining soo much weight!! oh ya, n i still can't forgot my habit, dat i love to bungkus makann that they prepared for us bwk blk rumh to share with family member!! hahahaaaa.... mknn byk sgt okeyh, xbaek mmbazir!!! =p

the participants are almost 47 person including boys and girls. but we can't get to know each other untill we being moved to klia professional and management college for 1 month! too many things happened in there! i've gone through ease and hard time. thank u to my family and my switheart coz always give me strength to being cool al the time. 1 month, we learn in deep about the project management and how we really need to be to become a project manager in future. site visit, class, assignment its a lot of knowledge for us. not to forget we need to go for "kawad" every morning which conducted by askar besara whos name is "mejar maya". its felt like hell act, kawad every morning???!! what a life???!! we grew up already, ready for work life, not even to become a plkn candidates!!! but guess what, that was the most thing that we missed when we complted the task at the klia college.  oh yes, we live in a room of 4 people in the college. and thank god we choose our own partner, so as usual i stayed with the uni bestie of mine: tqah, mien, mira and me. a lot of gossips thing' in such a dorm environment like that. many participants hate our room member, esp me. why?? no idea for that. kindda jealous thing and all. sometimes i feel its ridiculous, but at the end i feel that i love it! i learn how to control my emotion and taught myself how to react when some people hate u. new experience i guess. =p oh n yes, forgot to tell that its a klia college which is stated  10 minutes away frm klia airport which also basically that college produced an aircraft pilot and engineer. it means, dat we can see a lot of handsome pilot to be everyday and the best part was we knew that the airplane tooks 5 minutes for each plane to take off!! its quite noisy lives in the college located "dlm hutan" and can hear the airoplane take off evry minutes. but its fun! really!! 1 month makes us getting closer to each other. there's a lunch party for us as a farewell to closed our session at the college which held at sama-sama hotel. can't believe i dance at that lunch party! oh, n its bollywood song okeh!! hahahahaaa..., i was laughing out loud if i repeat the vid. never thought of myself "menari lagu bollywood" infront of other people. hahahahaaaa. but we enjoy that. ingt lg, practise menari with my roomies, smpai pkol 4 pg bru tdo. semangat sgt!!! aura bollywood da telebih mmc mcm tuh!! =p

oh, did i tell u that i'll the "queen of the day" at the lunch party???? yeahh..., dat most the best experience evah!! can't believe it!! xsangke dato' rohaizi from cidb and all of the board of director of cidb, teraju, and klia college vote for me to become the queen!!!! too happy for the reward!!! finally, merasa jgk jd queen!!! hihii... (maybe thats prove my "gelek bollywood terlebih" give some advantage for me to become the queen that day!! hahahaaaaa ) the theme was color block which everyone being soo striking dat day.

then, after finished 1 month journey at klia college, we continue back at pwtc for online training. and that training too easy for us as we can complete the task at home infront of our laptop. easy weazzy. coz everyone got all the 8 certificate with flying colors. yeayyyy!!!

last task for us, for this 2 month is training at MYPEC in menara safuan. for every each of us, here is the best training ever that we have in life!! seriussly!! the really taught us how to become not only the best project manager, but how the build a very strong organizational in 1 company with great financial and lots of of bussiness that gave a lot of project for the company modals evryday. yup, we learn from the basic how to build a company. not only we need to work in team, but trust, strength, idea, knowledge, and helping each one of us is what we need to do. a very2xx, big and huge thank you to mr tan, en abul, en iskandar, puan indah , dato' radin, dato' matsyam, and all MYPEC memeber for organizing such a great training places like that!! 10 days of training is still not enough for us to gain everything! but yes, we noticed that it is an international training course and of course cidb had spent a lot, i mean A LOTS for us for the 10 days training. its really worth for the money. oh, forgot to mention i've got the experienced to be the 1st CEO" of the company of our's which named by "MY REKABINA CONSTRUCTION sdn bhd". can tell that i've done quite a lot to setup the company. really though.. meet the real client, real banker, real contractor and real project task. too adventure for us which we had zero experience in working life. quite a challenging task for all of us, esp me the CEO's.( during this time, kesian my love's one selalu kene marah with me everytime blk kje, and he always need to deal with my stress and to calm me down. thank you soo much baby. without you the CEO's will definitely lost her rhythm to cntrol the company.  and big.., big.., big..,  thank you soo much for ur meaningful advice dear switheart.) we have 3 times of job position rotation at mypec. so, the 2nd rotation i am the account payable,  and this time really taught me on how to do the financial graph, how to balance the debit and credit for the company's monney, how hard to ask for a loan frm bank. its a very new thing for me in financial site. for the final position i became the civil and structural engineer for the company. guess not only being an engineer need to design for the house but i need to do for the id (interior design) work too. another new knowledge. yup, never taught id is very interesting coz we can use all of our creativity to pick the design of our house!! (at this moment i started to draw and design my own id for my future house! i really love the modern design for a family house.) *big smile

ohh..., we just ended our training at MYPEC a few days ago, which is 31st of dec 2013. at that night we celebrate the new year eve's together!!! ktrg celebrate dgn makan roti nan cheese plg happening kt kl!!! dat nite, ktrg gelak puas2x!! ktrg nyanyi ramai2xx!! ktrg borak sblom taon baru dtg!! seronok! 1 perkataan yg ckop mnggambarkn semua penat lelah sme2xx!!! group b is the best!!!  and thank you to puan baizura and puan sarah for being the best guardian for us!!! thank u.. thank u.. thank u...., Allah for this memorable moment!!! ini kenangan plg indah, plg manis!!!

on 2nd of january 2014, ktrg bbq sme2xx!! aktiviti terakhir bersama katenye sebelom ojt. kemensah menjadi bukti kita riang bersama. kite mulekan tahun baru bersama dgn ckop sempurna.

2 month down, now evryone counting days nk smbung another 10 month of ojt ( on job training) to complte this programme. as for me still waiting for another interview session to join any company. rse berat sgt nk berpisah dgn sume coz kje lain2 tempat. separuh ke naza, yg lain ke ong, gamuda, and klia.  but yeah, maybe the experience we gain, we'll share to each other.


note:

bile boring, kite kluar sme2xx, main golf ramai2xx, karok xingat dunia. mcm da bertahun kenal semuanya, padehal belom pon ckop 2 purnama. istimewa, terlalu istimewa ikatan yg terbina. smpai kite sendiri terlupa bru 2 bulan tempoh bersama.

thank you Allah for this opportunity, for this remarkable experience, precious friend and sweet journey. 2 bulan ikatan yg terjalin sgt erat. 2 bulan kami jd makin rapat. tak pernah termimpi punye keluarga, adik-beradik sebahagia ini. silaturrahim yg istimewa ini anugerah yg ckop bermakna. harap ikatan ini kekal selamanya, dgn izin dan redha dr NYA... amin...


gonna miss all of you group felo pembinaan cidb 2013....









Monday, January 6, 2014

memorable journey o 2013 part 1..

its been  a long time since i leave this blog. rinnnduu!! yess!! rindduuu sgt2xx!!! yup, busy with new schedule of life. xdpt nk "let the finger dancing on the keyboard". too much things want to share here. i want to write every each of my story. tp mcm xckop mse jer... huhuuu.. too busy. yup too busy with new life!! and now its 2014 already!!! how times fly soo fast!!! cpatnyeee da grad!!! but.., but.., but..,  but then still not too late for me to wish "a HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!!!!!" . i know its 6th of january 2014 now. guess its not too late to celebrate the new years eve here kn? . 2013 for me is an awesome year!! the year full of joy, reward, happiness, smile, laughter, tears, sweet moment, and unexpected journey. i don't know how to start my story of 2013 taht i left to write in here,  because its soo much things too share!!! oh my god!!! i really need 10 pages of post to write all of them!! ok, lets cut down the story,  lets review what was happened during my 2013 in short, starting with my convocation day first!












oh yesss!!! i'm finally graduated as a student of bachelor in civil engineering from UiTM dihatiku!!!!!! Alhamdulillah... big.., big..., big...., thankful to Allah for ease my journey to become an engineer. thank you Allah.. oh yup, you can see my happy face from all the pictures above!!! sooo.., sooo.., happy!!! all my loves one came to celebrate my Big day, including my family, mama, bapak, kakak, n my dear lovely partner (mr. danial) yg snggup rempit from klcc after work and the BEST part is, my wish come true, as my papa n his family also there waiting for me to came out frm the convo hall to congratulate me!!!! Masya Allah..., d tears start falling when i can finally HUg him tight!!!! Allahuakbar!!! can't believe Allah makbulkan my prayer.. too happy!! yes, i'm too happy!!!

dear mama,

thank you for being the greatest mom in the world. u always there since i was born. i know i promise u to work hard in life and to be a successful daughter of yours. and now i prove it!!! since skolah rendah mama sanggup hantar adk naik basikal. yeah, we r not from a rich family. but still thats not the excuses to fail in life. when i enter boarding school that was the hard times ever for our family. we struggle hard. but i'm not always at home to be by your side. and i'm sorry coz i dissapointed you. i'm too stress during dat moment. miss my family, worry about family too much!! yaa, i still remeber how was i react when i can't call u even for 1 day. sbb kalao nk call mama kne beratur amek no kt public phone aysk tuh! kalao adk skolah lmbt, adk xsmpat berator coz lmbat nk g klas tmbahan kt asrama. so that i will miss ur voice. 1 mlam tulah adk akn nangis smpai esk nk g skolah mate bengkak2. hihii.., malu jgk kalao ingt blk!! yeah, i'm not perform for my pmr result. mse tu jgk adk nanges kuat2x!! but mama still hug me tight. yeah, n dat moment to, papa left our family. i can't sleep for almost 3 days. adk takot what was going to happened to our family. but you always there for us. you r my strength to keep struggle in life and don't give up. yeah, and you always remind me, whenever i felt down or hopeless, "adik, bersihkan diri, ambil wuduk, solat sunat dan bace quran". i never gonna forget that sentence. then when i studied for spm, mama selalu bgun awl hantar adk naik bus for school. from that moment i told myself, this is the time to build my future life. i don't want to make my mommy sad anymore. never!!! well..., now i'm a degree holder!!! an engineer in progress. Alhamdulillah, thank u Allah.  i believe  that there's always a reward frm the hard times. janji Allah itu pasti. yg penting jgn sesekali lupe pada NYA. i know u never asked ur kids for money, car, house, or even jewellery. but you always told us, "mama akn selalu bahagia bile tgk ank2 mama bahagia"... adik janji adk akn tros berjaya dan buat mama bangge. i want to be the best daughter of yours, mom!!!''. Insha Allah..


note:

Allah taa'la tidak mencipta wajak adk persis mama dan papa semata-mata ats alasan saintifik. adk percaya wajah adk dilukis begini supaya tiap kali adk renung cermin, adk nampak mama dan papa. lalu tidak kira ke mana adk pergi, dan manusia apa adk jadi, adk membawa mama dan papa bersama.

dan bila kita semakin tua, wajah kita semakin iras ibubapa, kerana pada waktu itu mereka mungkin sudah tiada, dan Allah tahu kita rindu; kita perlu lihat wajah mereka.



alhamdulillah.., usaha 2 tahun setengah untk mendapatkn degree holder akhirnya tercapai. susah payah, penat lelah terbayar. thank you Allah. terima, keluarga, terima kasih tenaga pengajar, terima kasih sahabat, terima kasih cinta hati dan terima kasih semua yg telah banyak berkorban dan berbakti demi segulung ijazah ini.  sayang semua sangat2xx!! ini kemenangan kita bersama. ini adalah kenangan plg manis 2013!!!

diploma checked!
degree checked!!
- hope and pray to get my master... insha Allah..

wait for next entry of memorable journey of 2013 part 2..... byk sgt nk kongsi. nnt sambung k!

till next meeting. x.o.x.o





Sunday, November 17, 2013

passenger let her go



manusia baru dikenali setiap hari. bermacam perangai bermacam ragam. kawan beribu itu lumrah. ikatan silaturrahim perlu diluaskan, biar sampai seluasnye bumi ciptaan tuhan. walau tak pernah bertegur sapa, tp kite jd kawan baru bile berada ditempat baru. kenangan, pengalaman yg tak pernah di jangka tiba. mesra dr hari pertama menjadi lebih akrab bile tibe di minggu ketiga. perkenalan ya itu semua detik permulaan. dan biarlah kita jd rakan dan teman walau tak sampai sebulan tempoh perkenalan. berkongsi ilmu pengetahuan dan pengalaman itu yg plg diinginkan.

tapi terkadang, hati manusia berbeza niat boleh jd betukar tujuan dipertengahan jalan. suka kawan menjadi lebih dalam. ya itu juga lumrah alam. tahu setiap kejadian itu istimewa diciptakan tuhan. tapi terkadang bile mule berubah sikap, bertukar tutur percakapan, mate mule merenung dalam, hati jd tak selesa. setiap perilaku, perbuatan dan percakapan mule jd perhatian. ingin mengenali lebih dalam mmg boleh tp manusia juga punya rase kurang selesa, duduk td mule jd tak senang, perasaan biase terpakse bertukar kepade yg lebih berjaga-jaga. kawan ya tetap kawan. melebihi kawan itu bukan, menjadi musuh minta dijauhkan.

sikap, perangai dan tingkah laku kita seperti biase, tp tak sangka terkadang ade yg memerhati sedalamnya, mengkaji setiap inci darinya, mengambil berat setiap ape yg diperkatakannya. gurau kawan diambil serius, pakaian kite dijadikan dipersoalkan, perbuatan mule menjadi isu umpatan.

ya hidup penuh cobaan. ade yg suke smpai meminati seeratnya, ade juga yg benci smpai sanggup mengumpat setiap inci tentang empunya diri.

sukar untuk memuaskan hati semua. tak mudah untuk menjaga pandangan mate setiap yg memandangnya. ikatan antara manusia itu mmg penting seperti pesanan dr Al-quran " habuminallah, habluminannas". tp bukan semua mampu kite menjaganya.

suke atau benci, terpulanglah. kerana tahu tak pernah sempurna untuk semua.  terima kasih diucapkan kepada semua kerana terlalu mengambil berat sedalamnya. terkadang diri mahu ingin hidup bebas seperti yg lainnya. bebas terbang diangkasa sesuka hati.

namun, diri tetap redha atas ape yg berlaku, mungkin ini semua dugaan dan ujian dr NYA. kerana yakin dan tahu, setiap kejadian tuhan teselit hikmah yg cukup sempurna pemberian dari NYA.





-passenger let her go.....






















Tuesday, October 8, 2013

penunggu setia




tak mudah untuk menunggu. bukan senang untuk menghitung hari, jam, minit dan saat yg berlalu. perlukan hati yg jitu. mahukan kekuatan yg satu. perasaan jemu perlu dibuang seribu batu. menahan segala rase yg terbuku. kata org mmg mudah "ah..., anggap saja dia berjuang demi negara".. atau "memang dia hanye pergi untuk beberapa purnama".. dan lagi parah bila org sekeliling mula berbisik "bagaimana mahu percaya org disana beribu batu jauhnya. jgn buang masa menunggu yg tak tahu. entah dia sudah byk dikelilingi bunga"... ah...., hati mmg lemah. jiwa ini selalu saja gundah. mungkin betol kate-kate org kenapa perlu dipikirkan org yg asyik disana. entahkan dia punya org kedua. atau mungkin jarak beribu dan masa berlalu jadikan dia bosan menunggu. ya mungkin juga lupa pada janji yg satu.

ahhhhhh............, hati meruntun lagi. pelbagai bisikan merasuk diri. bingung dan celaru melanda diri.
kusut kenapa jd lemah begini.

lari... teros lari membersihkan diri. air mata bercampur dlm wuduk. tahu hanye ini penenang hati. tangan di angkat takbir ke hadap illahi. itu saja pengumpul semangat. ini saja jalan yg tepat. sujud diam menangis dlm sebak. perlukan petunjuk untuk selamat. mohon ketenangan dari segala bisikan. tahu hati ini dipegang tuhan. yakin  Dia yg Maha penyayang. sedu berselang seli dgn doa. air mate td masih belom berhenti. perlahan-lahan tangan mengambil quran. sejak kecil ini saja teman luahan perasaan. walau dipukul, diherdik dan ditinggalkan, tetap setia sebagai peneman. bait bacaan ini saja yg menghiburkan. walau quran basah lenjan, hati puas meluahkan. seperti cerita dikongsi bersama kawan. sehabis bacaan, quran kuat didalam pelukan. esakan td semakin tenang. hanye sedu-sedu yg tetap berterusan.

hati mengucap syukur. dalam sayu yakin Dia yg Maha Menentukan. setiap inci disegenap alam hanya Dia yg Menciptakan. tahu hanye pada Dia segala rahsia disembunyikan. biarlah doa td yg menguatkan. biarlah rindu td disampaikan tuhan.

percaya pada takdir Allah. yakin pada qada' dan qadarNya.

biarlah org teros berkata. biarlah terkadang hati lemah meluruh jiwa,

tetap mahu menjadi penunggu yg setia....




lanney, 081013






misteri



ruang ini sudah lama ditinggalkan
sepi sekian lama
habuk sini dan sana

kesebokaan dunia
dan kekeringan luahan idea



atau mungkin juga
sudah kehilangan inpirasi yg setia
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hidup ini penuh dgn misteri
sering tertanya-tanya apa yg bakal terjadi

benar kita yg berusaha ke arah apa yg ingin dimiliki
tp terkadang tak semuanya kite perolehi

tak pernah terjangka akan terjadi
terkadang belom bersedia untuk menghadapi

tp, rencana tuhan itu adalah yg terbaik
walau terkadang kita rase tak kuat untuk mengharungi

yakin dan percaya pada takdir illahi
kerana hanya dia yang Maha Mengetahui
segala yg tersembunyi walau hanye bisikan murni dlm hati

biarlah usaha yg berterusan, doa yyg tak pernah ditinggalkn
dan tawakal disepanjang perjalanan

kerana diakhir rancangan
kita pasti, tetap, dan selamanya hamba tuhan....







Tuesday, August 13, 2013

there comes a rainbow..



we always think there will always a rainbow after a rainy day,
but sometimes..........
we couldn't find one..
we search here and there..
but still the rainbow didn't show out.
but we wait for a while...
and keep waiting...
we really want to see the colorful of the rainbow
that will make us happy after a long rainy day.
we believe each of the color brings out the beautiful meaning for us.

but still.......,
after a long time
the rainbow did not show out.

we cry...
cause we were tired of waiting.
we cry..
cause we failed to see the beauty.
and we cry..
cause we finally believe the rainbow not meant for us.


we do believe in good things to happened,
we do pray that we will get our wish come true,
but maybe....,
its not today...,
its not tomorrow...,
it will be next year or in the future..


soon....., it will happened.



-hold on, keep going on